delorie

weightloss struggles!

weight loss is one of those rare feats that proof hard to accomplish. I've been trying to lose weight since i hit 18. That's one of the few things I've managed to not achieve in 4 long years. the challenge here is not in finding the right weight loss program, the challenge is in sticking to it. I know exercise is the ultimate cure when accompanied with the right diet...i could write 10 books on all the methods one could use to lose weight. But obviously, having all that knowledge has been of no use to me. let me give you an idea of what my normal day is.

i wake up at about 10am ( i cant seem to sleep early, which might be one of the reasons I'm still overweight), lazy around the house or just lay in bed reading a book. i go to the uni when i want. not the most serious student in the world ( which is especially bad as I'm studying one of the hardest courses, mechatronics engineering, yeah i know, I'm surprised too). anyways, i manage to drag myself out of bed and go downstairs to get breakfast at about 12pm. go back to bed and stay there surfing the internet. after that i just eat apples all day or peanut butter sandwich ( based on availability) and then have dinner late at about 12am.. so in general, i'm living a very unhealthy life style. I'm the laziest person i know .

so now i've decided that its time i get a life. so I've started exercising ( 2days already). on the first day i took a 1.5 hour walk and the second day (today), i did a little bit of strength training. for a moment i thought i was going to pass out from exhaustion. i still cant figure out the diet thing yet. i know i need more lean protein as my basic meal involves noodles and eggs. I'm not a big eater but i know for sure that my inconsistent eating habits put my body in starvation mode.

so i'm hoping to clean up my act and with a bit of encouragement and less mockery from the people around me, I'll be on my way to a leaner, sexier me.

finally, i need to get rid of stress in my life with from my failed relationships and other numerous emotional craps. so wish me luck! I'll keep you posted on my progress and maybe later, i'll be qualified enough to give others advice. Stay with me people!!!!!!

OK, so now i weigh about 78kg and I'm trying to down-size to 64.9Kg ( my healthy weight as said by a doctor based on my height and age)...so if my maths is by anyway correct, that's about 15kg less of what i weigh now. i have so much work to do. so much to sacrifice and I'm not exactly sure if I'm willing to let my peanut butter sandwich and pizza go or my midnight snacking!! but i have to get this right. keep your fingers crossed! all words of encouragement are most welcome!

see ya in a bit!

FRIENDSHIPS AND KAY !^!

Finding the right friends and keeping them can be so difficult. Everyone is unique and so different. sometimes we're really lucky enough to find those ones who we have a little bit in common with. i have lost many friends and I've gained double of that same amount. even the silliest of things can ruin friendships. things as stupid as over-used perfumes! i guess that's what distinguishes great friendships from people passing through. the first friend i ever lost was called Tamia! she's the skinniest person i've ever know and funny enough, she looks just like me and acts a lot lie me an I'm sure thats why we didn't get along. i think it mostly my fault as i have a way of being a bit too controlling sometimes. after her i tried to change that part of me but i failed because that was part of the reason the rest of my friendships went to the dust. OK, I'm not the nicest person alive but i do try. i give alms and i help people when i can but when things don't go my way i turn into this horrible monster suffering from PMS! but i credit myself on trying to work things out ( even though it never worked cos i managed to get controlling again while trying to sort our problems, Damn!) . anyways, i lost another great friend once ( not so great, really). i think that has got to be the meanest I've ever been. OK, I'll let you be the judge of that. i met this girls online and we hooked up. surprisingly I'd met one on a flight before ( the one i hurt, her name's Lele). well, they took me in and from the first day i could see that Lele was the "queen bee". it didn't really sit well with me as i was used to being the queen bee and i hated the way the other girls acted towards her( yeah, i know, elementary school). it seemed like they had no independent thoughts of their own and all the wanted to do was please her. somehow they realized i was interesting and they all wanted to be real close to me, even Lele. so i and lele started hanging out a lot and that kinda made the other girls feel left out. so Lele had to go home for the holiday ( we are in a university far from home) and she kinda left her stuffs with me (clothes and all). well, one of the other girls had this tendency to prefer other people's stuffs to hers, so liked to borrow Lele's clothes and accessories and then take pictures with them. by the time lele got back to town she did'nt like it atall as most of her clothes were on facebook and i was the new "queen bee". anyhow, they had this big quarrel and i was stuck in the middle. ended up being the one who got labeled the devil ( talk about the movie "mean girl's", there couldn't be two queens to one throne). playing the " they said, you said" game. everyone ended up getting hurt! i tried a million times to talk to Lele, but she didn't want anything to do with me. i tried everything, emails, phone calls...everything. I'm just glad i tried. i sleep well knowing that. even if we were all to blame. Now I'm stuck in this friendship with this stuck up girl that has been dragging for so long. so I'm still deciding if its worth saving ( got a great amount of advice from that site) . I'll let you guys know how it goes. LESSON : Life is like a tree. Friends are either roots or leaves or branches. the leaves are those people just passing through. with the slightest wind, they're out of your life but you'll survive. some are branches.....it'll talk a whole lot more for those to go and yes, they'll be missed but you'll survive. finally, the roots! those are the friends you don't want to loose. it'll take the world to chase them away and even after that, they'll stay. but if you think for a moment you're loosing any of those.. don't hesitate to do everything humanly possible to make them stay.