91KG

Yah!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I lost 7KG at my last weigh in which was last week. That is a lot for only one week!! 15Lbs!!! at this rate, by June, I'll be at my dream weight 64KG!!!!!!!!!!! I'm hoping that by d next weigh in, which is at the end of febuary, I will have lost another 10kg or more.


What have i been doing?

I continued my protein diet. meat, meat and meat! five small meals a day.

Breakfast


A scoop of whey protein with a glass of 2% milk


3 hours later


steamed chicken or turkey with vegetables


Lunch


vegetable salad


2 hours later


steamed fish or lean pork with vegetables


Dinner


same as lunch.

I drink lots and lots of water. I try to consume a minimum of 2liters everyday.


WORKOUT

Same as always. 30 - 45 mins cardio ( walking, running, HIIT) and another 45mins of resistance training. My muscles don't hurt anymore. I think i am getting too used to my exercises and i'm getting a bit bored with repeating the same thing over and OVER! I intend to incorporate p90x again but i love exercising outdoors.

I have purchased heavier weights! yah!!!! Basically, its a set with 8 different weights. so i can load on dumbbell up to 22lbs (10kg) or more. But i would not advise that cos i'm still not able to use them fully loaded. So far, I can manage only a few repetitions with the 7kg load.

MOTIVATION

The biggest help will have to be bodybuilding.com !!! I visit that site everyday to look at transformations of other real people like me and i'm convinced that if they can, then so can i. It helps me stay focused and when i'm confused, i just go and look at the diets of these people. get some tips to help me be successful.

It also helps that my best friend is trying to lose weight too. So i have someone close who's on the same journey as me ( even if she's leaner and doesn't want muscles. I want muscles!! -_-). She's the diet queen. She managed to lose 70lbs by dieting alone a few months ago.

Family and friends are starting to get with the program. They are "trying" to be supportive. At least no one laughs at me anymore when they see me going to exercise. Counts blessing.


CHALLENGES

My major challenge will have to be time management. I can't seem to have enough time to workout and still go to work early. Laziness and procrastination are still demons i'm fighting. I think they contribute in stealing my time! Thieves!!

Cravings are not so bad anymore. but once in a while i yearn for soda ( and by yearn, i mean, shaking, feverish and mumbling nonsense). Went to a party yesterday and had a few bottles. I know, i know, i'm bad! I'm sorry!! I think its OK to cheat from time to time. Keeps me sane.


That's all for today, kids! see you in another 10kg.

98KG

After almost a year of avoiding the scale, I did it with my best friend. Talk about a RUDE awakening! 98 freaking Kilograms!!!! I have never been so shocked in my entire life. How did i let myself get so overweight? I honestly do not know. My heart broke. Everything changed right before my eyes. I was angry, sad and shocked. Kept asking myself, how did i get here? Cried, cursed and raged for an hour and then I GOT OVER IT.

I realized i was already on my way to losing all this weight. I eat healthy, drink lots of water and exercise for at least an hour everyday. My clothes feel lose and i feel better. So i guess i must have weighed a lot more than 98KG two weeks ago. I have been taught to always look at the bright side of things. To never dwell on the negative side of things because, nothing ever changes with a mindset like that.

Lately i have been spending quite a bit of time on http://www.bodybuilding.com and especially on the page with women that have lost a lot of weight and i'm feeling very inspired. These are women in their 30s and 40s losing all this weight and getting abs like 18yr old kids. If they can, so can I!

I'm going to double my workout and incorporate heavier weights. I don't just want to be slim, i want to be well toned. So thats where i am now.


HCG updates!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1


I can't seem to follow the strict diet. I eat very small portions but i can't seem to use only one vegetable. This weekend, I cheated a "bit". Had two slices of bread, an eclairs ( don't know why, I hate chocolate), a cup of rice, a tiny bit of fried chicken and a glass of milk. I just want to do something i can stick to forever.

I'm tired all the time because I work out even when the instructions said not to. I just can't trade my work out for the HCG. I'm afraid if i stop, i'll fall off the wagon completely. Therefore, I'm seriously thinking of suspending the HCG. I haven't made up my mind yet. I'm back to eating only small portions of protein. I have to say, the HCG makes me not feel hungry all the time. I'll give it that.

Exercise + HCG

So its 2012. I feel old already. On new years day, i didnt make any resolutions. Many years ago, i made a last resolution to never make any more resolutions. Thats the very first time i ever stuck to any resolution. I've used the word " Resolution" too many times already so.......Moving on.

Updates!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I fell off my weightloss wagon. AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (yes i love exclamtion marks :) ) I did the healthy eating for a week. lost about 3 pounds and ran out of bananas. Ok, so to be honest,I'm not quite sure which happened first. The boredom or the Banana revolution. Anyways, I fell off. for a month. And then a friend of mine posted a photo I took 2years ago. The difference was so clear. I wanted to cry. The very next day, I hired a personal trainer!

So far so good, Its been almost 2weeks since my first work out. Its been very challenging and i'm loving it. I don't see myself getting bored anytime soon because i'm getting addicted. I wake up at 5.30AM every morning. Do some aerobics (running, walking) for an hour whilst holding two 1kg dumbbells, then I do many, very many repetitions of crunches and all the horrible exercises my trainer can make up to torture a kind, harmless angel like me :(.

My muscles have started to forgive me for all the torture. I'm grateful for their kindness. I can already feel the difference. I'm thinking 30Kg by May 2012. Someone say a big Amen!! Yes? No? Whatever, I don't care what you think....U... now moving on.....Positive energy in...Negative energy out....


HCG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!( yes i love my exclamations) What a pain. I'm hungry all the time. Well, i just finished my 2 days of loading day AKA phase 1. They were heavenly. I could eat anything and everything. Now i'm in day 1, Phase 2 :(. I am allowed only 500 calories. This morning, i thought i was definitely going to pass out. I do not think exercising and HCG go together. So little food and so much exercise. I'm going to up my calorie intake to around 800 to see how it goes.

So that's the update for my roller coaster weight loss journey. See you in a week.