Not Today, Not Now!

Hi guys, just got back from the gym (4th Feb) . had a great workout. my muscles are sore and I'm still clueless on what to eat to make all my hard work worthwhile. i think I've lost a bit of weight because, i measured my waist today (just before i ate an entire bowl of witabix) and it was 29cm, so that's 1cm shy from the original size. Right now, with my tummy full of witabix, its currently at 30cm. I'm hoping its just d bloated tummy talking.

So its the 5th today and i feel ill. I'm still bloated and too sore to even move. No exercise for me today. Everything hurts! even my ass bones/muscles. I had a little bit of rice earlier on for lunch and i suspect its to blame for my tummy issues. I'll just wait till tomorrow and see how this goes. moving on from all weight loss related matters.


Today hasn't been the best day. feeling a bit under the weather. Cant go to sleep and just had a fight with one of the most important people in my life ( the boyfriend). so i guess, its pretty safe to say, there's a big chance that this relationship is over! i suck at being mushy so this is pretty hard for me to write. this is one example of those relationships where love is not enough.

i appear to too many people as this kick-ass chick, who doesn't really care or need anyone but herself and its been a major problem in this relationship because, it gives people certain ideas that i don't love them as much as they love me. Which is so untrue and it hurts like hell. many times, I've tried my hardest to show them the best way i can and other times I've even gone beyond my best. Right now, to this person, its my fault that this relationship is probably over. i guess I'm just a hard person to love. oh well, bad things happen to bad people sometimes (like my friend used to say)!

You know what makes this horrible. it feels like deja vu. Been here before. funny enough, the last time i was here was just around this time of the year. Days to valentine! I hate valentine's day.
i guess some of us will just have to learn to live with misfortunes like this.

OK! so, today's post doesn't have the usual cheerful note like days before. hopefully tomorrow will be different. stay tuned.